lack of blogging.. why? cuz im reading! goodnight, beautiful by dorothy koomson. im rather a fan of her. i've read my best friend's girl and chocolate run, all from her. and i just finished goodnight, beautiful. her novels are rather draggy but uber descriptive. the characters' mind, soul, feelings are so beautifully and clearly described. love 'em!

mel is pissing me again. he's been neglecting me. yuck!

darling went for his jabs on mon. the pneumococcal was pain! tears were rolling down his eyes. poor poor darling. mummy and i feel heartpain.. he's got a good weight gain! 825gm in a month! i think i've done a good job and his immunity is good. how do i know? better not jinx it. anyway the paoshen did a good job too! his fever was at most 37.5 and he's fine now. brown rice congee and soy formula is the best combo! the nurse at polyclinic was saying that i can intro rice cereal to darling. i replied that i've already start congee. to my surprise, instead of reprimanding me(as alot does), she exclaimed that its good and whether he enjoys it anot? of cuz, i simply replied yes with a big smile!

i've tried doing pumpkin and carrot puree and apple and pear puree. darling simplys loves em! i must not be lazy! its tough job aite!

well well well... recently i've got flashback bout the incident.. it never fails to make my blood boil all over again.. and since i've wrote about my terrible paternal side.. i shall reveal.. my maternal aunt.

remember she came over with her son? in short, she tried to make my darling sick for god knows reason! she purposely let her sickly son gets near my darling, drools on darling's mattress, toys, bolster. i've got to secretly change/wash them. and she put darling's milk on her son's lips(the milk was intended for darling as its feeding time. and so she tried to lure her son with it). for fuck she does that? god knows. she's sick in the mind. she jolly well knows darling cant sit unsupported and she place him sit by himself which she sit and watch. i found darling's head inbetween his legs in sitting position. he was stuck in that position when i saw him.

she's really crazy. out of her peanut brain. she call herself a hygiene freak but why does she becomes so unhygiene when she comes over? deliberately? purposely?

we human must not do bad things. why? because god is watching. the next day after she made darling fell, she son almost fall on his own. if you're reading, this is called RETRIBUTION. initially when she rang us, she was crying over the phone(mind you, we're already not in talking terms) mummy and i got were worried for her. we put the unhappy past aside and not be calculative with her. she said her son was having fever for the past 2 days. rather high fever. and we took the risk that darling may be infected, we brought both of them her. we brought her to see nam seng dr koh. dr koh say her son will most likely develop fake measles after her recovers from his throat infection. true enough, her son really got it! he's got red patches ALL OVER. dr koh did say its not infectious. which mum wont be skeptical bout it? but we still let her stay. and what the fuck she did to repay us?!?!?! by attempting to make darling sick! finally after 5 days, i couldnt take it. mummy ask her to go home. mummy wish her to go back too. she was pretty reluctant. i cant wait to kick her back. of cuz, she did ALOT more hideous stuffs, which im too tired to mention. i conclude that she really really desperatly need a psychiatrist. simply out.of.her.mind.. C.R.A.Z.Y..

im glad darling was still healthy and well after the trauma. my trauma. he's just too young to underestand. mummy was guilty cuz she's the one who initiate to bring that person back. well, i did agree with it(bringing her back). being our kaypo and helpful nature, we cant leave her at lurch. i simply cant get over what she did. its a permanent nightmare for me. i hate her for good. we did it out of goodwill. we want to help her. i suspect maybe because she's jealous of us. jealous of me. jealous of darling. why? cuz she gotta work and gotta place her son with nanny and her husband is not in town. pity her? hah! i used to. not anymore. fuck you.

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